really bad mood in
my mind. before the time i came along with my family whose contain grandma,
uncles and aunts with their children i called cousins that i am older than
them, and my mother and only young brother. we have lived a townhouse until
now. by the way, between this time i left to rent outside myself. frankly
speaking, i am not grateful with them. especially my mother, my father as well,
who are the original evil to let me be born on the devil world. as i open my
eye at the first time and breath my fist air, it also mean my hard start-up to
struggle with making my living. everyone seems like me all the same. moreover,
my parents gave me a extremely worst childhood. they doesn't provide us a
wholly warm home, at last they broken. i feel so sorrow. even they didn't supply me a staple house. the
other bitter problem is my profession to breed myself. it's not easy to reach
the destination my goal, which make a quick buck to get rid of my embarrassing
situation. i think more and more ways to make money, but the basic problem is
that i have not much money.i wish i can have my time and poverty. it needs to
afford more stress and risk. i ask myself: can i hand up these burdens? what do
i want? now my passion is for bl and ABC. i estimated high myself, which i
suppose learning a language, even having a not deep realizing about it before,
could better of half one year. for my refusing of speaking and writing, i don't
feel effective along the learning process. i clearly understand the resource of
the obstacle root is myself. now only i can do is keep walking on my way.
absolutely don't give up. if does, i will be fail in my life. try to accept and
adapt this rough life road. in the end i will be a happy woman.