Dying to sleep

失眠對現代人是很常見的毛病。

Insomnia seems to be a common symptom for everyone now.

不久前看到一篇文章提到老鼠擁有和人類相似的大腦，即便在睡眠中意識永遠保持清醒

No longer before I saw an article that mouse have a brain similar like human’s, never stopping keeping conscious even sleeping.

會有這種現象是因為它需要重複記憶生活環境的路線以便覓食避敵。

The reason why it must do is rememorize its maze of its life place repeatly for its living.

然而，我們會有這種症狀並不全是如老鼠一樣在於生活壓力，雖然大都是如此。

However, our human don't totally have this kind of worried problem like this, although mostly.

少數不幸罹患失眠的人起因於家族的遺傳因子。

A few people unluckily get insomnia, are caused from their genetic factors from their family.

如果祖上有這種病症史，我選擇不與理會。

If my family tree has blighted by this disease, I still live my life as usual.  

Redheads: Are they going extinct?

天賜紅髮的人讓人覺得新奇。

Owning red hair sounds good, which would make you very special.

不過總有些嫉妒的人會用傷人的話嘲笑你。

But sometimes it could make you have a brutal teasing from another people who are jealous with your unique hair.

要是持有明顯易於常人的表徵，在團體中往往脫穎而出，即便他人不是有意關注。

If one has obvious appearance trait different from others, in a group it singles out and is focused, even anyone doesn't pay attention on him on purpose.

如今只要把頭髮染紅，每個人都能有一頭紅髮。

Nowadays everybody also can have red hair if they dye red color.

After reading & writing class

after reading & writing class, Ben, Amy and i had a conversation about each one's career schedule in the future.

Ben said that his ABC learning in GVO is for its communicate with his clients and companions. he have his own idea for his way. in his former job lets he realize what he interests, as a pm(i guess it is called personal manager) who keep in touch with his company's clients for make a business straightly as well as control the direction of product developments. however, sounds like he had a problem with his workmates from another departments that he don't wholly understand the madding process of his products, and then his companions totally don't match him about the data of  products' designs.

the asking he told me about my taking in this class should make a completely speaking for any sentence, or he don't learn more on my knowledge. funk! am i your teacher? have you paid for me to teach you? don't you think your asking attitude so rude? what a rough and wild man! don't think your strong figure makes you pride.

All right. even your bitter words is good for me. i plan a lot of ways on my career, but i am not sure which one i want. shall i back a step for my living, or make a challenge that i don't know? i am very clear that i am unconfined with my ability. i don't know if my selection is correct. all what i want to know must search by myself. so, just make up on my mind to reach my choice. god! it's not so easy to practice. keep on my way. don't think about more.

it's also having Amy's comments. but it seems like she don't worry about her job. she makes clothes auction on website, and has a boyfriend, who is an engineer. may she get a bliss.

in the end, maintaining an endless writing exercise is my necessity for improving English ability.

The another woman

one of ABC class today i heard a classmate talk the movie she went to theater with her husband. so incidence do I like this film. its chines name, translated from its original name, interests to me.

in the beginning there were a movie called '' superheroes'', i guess this name, its Chinese name is ''復仇者聯盟''. and then, the group called ''負債者聯盟'' shown up by a crowd of graduate students whose must afford their school load after ending their learning. now a new movie is coming which is my class partner mentioned. its Chinese title: ''婦仇者聯盟'', ''the another woman'', is familiar with these above names. those movie-promotion companies got a creative idea for their products.

for its names, i have a strong incentive for the movie watching.

A nosey search for landmines

提到老鼠，你有甚麼想法？

as mentioning of mice, what do you think about?

它是個令我噁心的骯髒生物。

i think it's a dirty animal which makes me sick.

有別於我對它的刻板印象，它對人類的貢獻也不少。

different from my first impression to it, this creature provide not less contributions to us.

科學研究上是最佳實驗對象，除此，我們利用它的嗅覺搜索早期的戰用地雷。

in lab it is a best research examiner, in addition, its smell perception also can help human to search the former landmines on war.

現今富庶的時代，鼠類如同其他貓、狗家寵一般讓飼養。

in this wealthy time, rats become a fashion pet as well as another domestic animals such as dog and cat.

The Marshall islands castaway

每位讀此文的閱者多少會好奇這個男人在這場船難中是否吃了他的同伴。

everyone reading this article could wonder if the senior man ate his companion at this sea disaster.

就我看來可能性非常高，如果他想活下去的話。

the possibility of this case i think is very high, if he craved to survive.

再者，推測誰的存活率較大，較年少的絕不是首選。

furthermore, assuming which man has a strong life rate, it must not be the younger man.

其一的理由是他年長的年紀，可能具有應變此狀況的相關經驗。

one reason to explain that his age is older, so he might have enough relative experience how to handle this kind of problem.

另一個理由則是他的耐心，跟十七、八歲的熱血少年比起來，三十歲數的長者更有堅定的心智。

another one is his patience, compared to the hot-passion 17 or 18-year-old youth, i consider more than thirty-year-old man should have a staple mind to endure his plight.

總結來說，這場求生事件的最終贏家將是能堅持到最後一刻的苦難者。

in my conclusion, the winner of this survival crisis would be the victim insisting at last moment.

Really bad mood in my mind

really bad mood in my mind. before the time i came along with my family whose contain grandma, uncles and aunts with their children i called cousins that i am older than them, and my mother and only young brother. we have lived a townhouse until now. by the way, between this time i left to rent outside myself. frankly speaking, i am not grateful with them. especially my mother, my father as well, who are the original evil to let me be born on the devil world. as i open my eye at the first time and breath my fist air, it also mean my hard start-up to struggle with making my living. everyone seems like me all the same. moreover, my parents gave me a extremely worst childhood. they doesn't provide us a wholly warm home, at last they broken. i feel so sorrow. even  they didn't supply me a staple house. the other bitter problem is my profession to breed myself. it's not easy to reach the destination my goal, which make a quick buck to get rid of my embarrassing situation. i think more and more ways to make money, but the basic problem is that i have not much money.i wish i can have my time and poverty. it needs to afford more stress and risk. i ask myself: can i hand up these burdens? what do i want? now my passion is for bl and ABC. i estimated high myself, which i suppose learning a language, even having a not deep realizing about it before, could better of half one year. for my refusing of speaking and writing, i don't feel effective along the learning process. i clearly understand the resource of the obstacle root is myself. now only i can do is keep walking on my way. absolutely don't give up. if does, i will be fail in my life. try to accept and adapt this rough life road. in the end i will be a happy woman.  

How fuck a stupid boy!

How fuck a stupid boy! After I asked his mother if the sports competition has an influence on the weather, she said that is OK. No longer I went upstairs, he asked his mom who I am. God! I live in the house as bad as you. What an idiot odds! Even you want to ask, at least don’t let me know. A dirty duck! Fuck you all your home.

Now, I feel better. Ha.

A comet-chasing craft

每個地球人來說，太空探險一直是遙不可及的夢想。

Having a space exploring is always the dream hardly to accomplish for every earth residents.

我很好奇黑洞的另一邊是怎樣的世界。

I wonder to know what the world is through the black hole.

宇宙間會有像我們一樣的生物嗎？或是在科幻片中出現的怪物一樣?

Are there also the other creatures like us in this universe, or some transformable animals as the monsters in sci-fi movies?

宇宙間充滿未知的事物有待我們去發掘。

In the cosmos it is filled of multiple special discovering, which waits for us.

A tree celebration

鑲滿全身、禮物圍繞的高大樹木可是聖誕節中的主角之一。

One of the main roles in Christmas Day is a big decorated tree surrounded with kinds of presents.

有些人會到四月的時候才將家中的聖誕樹火化昇天。

Some people hold their trees until April and then burn them up to heaven.

不同於西方的文化，我們節日中有關於植樹的節慶是國父誕辰。

Being different from their culture, the festival celebration about tree planting is our national father's birthday.

許多官員會在那莊嚴的一日到國父墓園種樹追思。

In this graceful day many government officers gather to be a group of gardeners in the tomb of the former national director for a historical rememorizing.

不論哪一個國家大體上都視樹木為一種精神象徵。

No matter which country overally regards the tree as a spiritual symbol. 

The scourge of the Great Lake

我們亞洲種的鯉魚名揚全美真是令人意料之外。

Our Asian carp has had a big name spreaded to all U.S., which is so crazy for me.

不過好像對在地的主流河中原生種的存活造成嚴重的危害。

But it looks like have a trouble that the kind of fish occupy their mainstreams to cause their native species ones hardly survive.

常聽人說:衰人長命，意旨一個命運多劫的人具有強烈的生存意識方可逆轉為夷。

Usually hearing someone say: '' poor-fate one always have a long life,'' which means a unfortunate person has a strong desire for living to overcome his hardship.

同此說法，亞種成為這個生態的主宰。

For matching with this saying, Asian species become the king of this eco-system. 

興許下回在餐桌上會有這道美味的鯉魚料理也說不定。

Perhaps next time on the table there has a delicious carp of cuisine.

The silly thing what I did in this morning

it happened a bad accident in this morning. on my way to GVO i bought some bread in the bakery where is in the tradition market. after costuming, i move my bike ahead. unfortunately, i was too hurry to stop the bicycle movement, besides, at the same time i thought another something in my mind. as a result, the middle man in front of me was bumped to his left leg. as soon as he felt hurt and was angry to say ''shit'', i was so scared that i faced down the ground and constantly said ''sorry'' to leave there. the poor man seemed not to ask a compliment to me, therefore, he didn't chase behind me. in this mistake case i caused i felt sorry about him, which made me a teaching: Don't ride in a crowded street instead of walking with handling my bike.

My favorite music: Mirror

  it was adapted by '' mirror'' the original singer song, which is composed by the group of a man band and a five-girl team. i listen to this song from YouTube. it is a great partner while every time i eat food in front of PC. what it is interested to me is its melody which goes with me without any reason.

  what i found is in the boy band the singer has both playing and singing characters, but the others merely play instrument. it is like the saying ''everyone has his own pro in his career team.'' although the main singer isn't very handsome, he has a nice throat to sing.

  besides, the girls' legs seemed too thigh, which the fact comes from their underpart of body wearing short pants on the stool and crossing their legs. they are very brave. if me, i dare not to do it.

in the end credits, they share their feelings about this performance for the watchers.  the only black girl is shameful which i didn't think before. their dressing are so nude; one girl of this group was in upper-bra white one-piece clothing,  another one in a hippie hat, the another one in cowboy jacket, and the last one in a red butterfly hair roll.

despite the music i love, i can learning ABC in this way. thanks for YouTube providing for English learners especially for self-trainers even kindly to degreeing three rank as elementary, immediate, and advanced and classifying different sorts of topics such as movies, lectures, and so on.

Everyminute counts

''time is money.'' this saying might be a deep description for those businessmen who have any number of deal to handle.

though i am not a businesswoman, i have time pressure by myself. like now, except staying my home, the second home where i go to everyday is GVO. for coming true to develop the self-professional-English, what i touch is ABC' articles, classes, magazines, and so on. without any money into my pocket, i have to do my best to reach a standard beyond the elementary one for making a life. therefore, this period time of learning isn't easy for me.

the proverb makes me image a scene for a new-coming salesman in black suit, which his mind condition is anxious about his meeting with his clients. so he starts to run in a hurry by rising his leg with a briefcase handing. this imagination is so match with this speaking, right?

Life in America's dead zone

在這個科技化的時代，所有人無時無刻使用電子產品。

In this technological time all people depend on the electronic products almost every time.

故此，我們無法適應有如古代原始的環境。

As a result, we don't entirely put up without living in a natural environment as in ancient time.

令我不敢置信的是聽聞像美國這麼強大的大國內有如此的鄉村地區叫人吃驚。

Hearing about the most countryside area in the strongest nation makes me unbelievable and amazing.

對科技的依賴使我們在課堂上回答老師是否願意待在這種地方時一致說不。

The common answer the teacher asked us in the class, whether be willing to live in this kind of place is ''NO'' because of our tech-stuff depending.

Iceberg harveting

冰山商機是我從未想過的驚奇生意。

What an amazing business I have never thought is the application of iceberg.

水源來處使商品具有特點的吸引力。

Its water resource can make a special feature in relation to the market products.

我想多數人都會想嘗看看冰山的滋味是如何。

Most of customers, I thought, would want an iceberg flavor to taste for a fresh satisfaction.

作為已營利為目的的生意人，在初始前會以冰山水作原料，卻在之後考慮成本而替換自來水。

As a greed-hearted trader, he would manufacture the drink made of iceberg melting water at first, otherwise, then considering the original payment factor to replace the tap water.

冰山商機真是潛力無窮呀！

What a potential money market iceberg deal is!

A dark debate

樂活運動瑜珈能舒緩我們日常不順心所產生的壓力。

Yoga, an easygoing sport, can smooth our stress resulting from the everyday unpleasurement.

瑜珈帶動的緩慢節奏培養我們耐性，特別是那些脾氣不好的人

Its rhythmic tempo is slowly which can culturate our patience, especially for the people who have a bad temper.

再者，長久的訓練對我們的身心有很大的改善。

And then, exercising yoga in a long run have an effective modification for our body and mind.

總之，瑜珈對健康非常有幫助，雖然我不是很感興趣。

In a nutshell, yoga actually do good on our health even I don't have a flavor for it.

Meditation: A rising trend

未告知當事者婦女，而擅自給她進行剖腹手術是很不道德的。

It's not respectful for the baby's mother to have her a caesarian section without notice.

故此，因造成對人權的侵害讓這場事件引發國際關注。

Therefore, this event has drawn as an international concern for its abusement of human right.

我婉惜這個不幸發生和此事件中患有精神疾病的婦女所生的可憐小女孩。

I'm sorry about the unfortunate issue what to happen as well as the poor little girl of this main role----the mental-diseased mother.

但願這個爭議能圓滿落幕。

Hope the happy ending will be coming in this controversy.

The McDonald's war

從這個爭議中要論誰對誰錯是很難的抉擇。

To choice side with each other in this controversial issue is so difficult.

退休老人們做占位霸，礙於年紀以及顧客權益不好說他們；而麥當勞店家也要經營生意以及維護其他消費者的使用權利，他們自身也很頭痛。

Not so respectful to blame the retirees who occupy long-time seats due to their age and the right of customers, however, McDonald’s business managing and protecting the right of other paying clients are at add with the old for the chain restaurant's confusing host. 

不過這件紛爭竟然可以鬧到警察出面真是備感出奇。

As a result, it's so amazing to need the police to deal with the event.

我的看法是麥當勞經理真是太不會做生意了。

In my opinion, the McDonald’s boss is really stupid for her job.

這群老年人也是一群消費團，為何不跟他們妥協，促銷他們喜愛的韓國美食在你的菜單上？

Who don’t get along with the old─a group of paying resource by prompting their favorite Korea food in your menu?

Graphene: the miracle material

石墨，我們常見的鉛筆尖端，竟然能在科技應用上引起如此巨大的影響力。

Graphite, the tip of a common pencil, can cause a quite huge influence on the technical application.

看起來，往往都是很常見、在我們四周的物品或多或少蘊含意想不到的商機潛能。

It unbelievably looks like the articles which usually can see beside our side own the wealth potention more or less.

一些聰明的製造商用它做噱頭，在為他們的產品做廣告促銷。

Some clever manufacturers use it an interesting point of ad for their products.

我只能說，生活中的驚奇發現往往讓人意料之外，要如何營造商機全憑個人腦袋。

Only I can say, the surprising creatures of our life always amaze to us, so how to make money by them up to what I think.

All about spider

我對蜘蛛不算喜歡，但也不到要殺他的地步。

I am not fond of a spider but have no idea of killing it.

挺意外蜘蛛有多達數百萬的眼睛，那真是太可怕了。

So terrible millions of eyes of a spider surprises me.

或許我們可以研究如何將這種器官轉移到盲人身上，讓他們重見天日。

The research how to transplant the organs into the blind might restore their sight.

跟蠶寶寶一樣，他們的絲繭被我們用在製衣上。

The silk cocoon of a spider, as a silkworm’s, is regarded as a clothing material.

我挺欣賞這種材質，輕巧又有很強的防禦力，連子彈都不怕。

The advantages of the silk I admire are light and have stronger defense even against bullets.

要如何運用蜘蛛生物的特點營造商機，就得靠我們動腦筋囉！

Try to create the chance of business how to use the properties of a spider depends on our wisdom. 

Food deserts

讀後感

After reading

其實在整日都吃速食的環境生活也是挺幸福的事，我還挺想嘗試的，如果不會變胖的話。

Generally speaking, if the fatness was not owned on my body, enjoying around fast food environment all day long is a fortune which I desire to try.

我個人是偏好炸食的，但也不排斥吃蔬菜。

Fried food is my favorite to eat, in my opinion, so does the fresh produce.

加上我住在滿是各大量販店的市區，要買鮮食並不是一件難事。

In addition to living in the urban zone including any number of supermarket, much simple is to purchase fresh food for me.

挺難想像沒有蔬果可吃的日子是怎麼過的，那必定滿口黃油吧！

More difficult to imagine if no vegetables and fruits can eat, that must makes me a greasy mouth.

不然就是喝著湯湯水水度日，如果不想患心血管疾病死去的話。

Or making a living with drinking instead, if I don’t like to die out of cardiovascular disease.

Building the bionic man

真是受夠了！怎麼最近都在談未來生物基因工程的事，還人造人了！

It's enough. Why always talk about genetics biotechnology engineering even the produce, the bionic man!

我其實也不是十分認同這種研究，只是提到可能會有人異想天開使人造人有生育傳承下一代的可能。

Actually, this research I do really disprove in my mind and just mention the possibility of having next generation for the hand-made mankind, produced by crazy scientists.

哪知就有大嬸學員直回嗆這是多麼奇怪的思維，根本不可能發生。

Suddenly one old woman, the learner like me, had a straight expression that it's such an odd thinking without a chance to happen.

操你媽的，老子只不過順提一下，別把你的否決直衝我來。

Fuck a bitch! Don't reject against me for the opinion I randomly commented.

要克制自己的情緒可真是不容易。

It's not so easy to have a balance level with my EQ.

The trailer turns 100

讀後感

After-reading

1.讀完此文讓我對電影預告片認識不少。

More about the trailer I realize from this article after reading.

2.我才知道它的開山始祖來自國外的「尋歡」，到現在預告片已經有百年的歷史了。

The Pleasure Seekers, the first movie preview, is 100 year olds until now.

3.預告片會有洩漏劇情的問題在於有專門的製預告片公司，而非製作此片的原班人馬。

And its problem that contains spoilers is made from the trailer production company, not the filmmakers who made the movie.

4.還有，一部預告片的播放不會超過二分半鐘。

Besides, its play-time totally lows below one hundred fifty seconds.

5.我看片也會依據預告片是否吸引我才決定；它可以讓我對這部要上映的片有初步的認識，看是否符合我的喜好後再決定是否要花時間觀看。

The movie I desire to watch if it goes with my flavor by seeing the preview, that ia to say, which gives me the first impression worth of watching.

6.一部片的播片大多要一、二個鐘頭，要是花錢看自己不感興趣的片是很折磨人的事情。

It mostly spends one or two hours playing, therefore, paying to watch for a boring film which is not my favorite would make me sick.

7.對身為觀眾的我們來說，預告片的出現為我們在選片上省了很大功夫。

As an audience, the birth of trailer is convenient to select an enjoying movie.

Are DNA test kits accurate?

讀後感

After reading

DNA的發現，讓人們除了對生命的探索外，也多了一項謀財的管道。

Not only discovering the original of creatures, the appearance of DNA also makes a way of wealth.

在應用上，最直白想讓人了解的莫過於對未來的疾病風險提前預防，尤其是有明顯遺傳家族疾病的家庭。

To prevent the potential disease in the future is the information everyone wants to know on applying  on DNA, especially for the people have obviously genetic symptoms in their family tree.

因為有這個需求，許多以檢測ＤＮＡ做疾病分析服務的公司油然而生。

Having this market for demanding accounts for the companies provide disease-analyzing by DNA testing.

不過文中也指出，大部分公司都只做部分的ＤＮＡ片段分析，因此檢測的結果模稜兩可，讓測試消費者無所適從。

It is mentioned, however, because mostly of servers analyze nothing but parts of DNA segment, their tests vary more different with each other which makes their consumers confusing.

我十分認可文中最後的一段建議，若是有錢多到沒處花又想預防疾病發生，不妨先從體重評估開始。

I am totally convinced to the last solution of this paper as if you own lots of money and hope averting the disease happened, try to start with the weight on the scale.

Writing exercises

From this time, I make the decision for this project - writing exercise. After reading three GVO magazines, I have to record the feeling of reading, and then put on my blogger as a footprint in my ABC learning which make me an achievement feeling. So, let's do it.

Communication

Around our living surroundings, we use many communication productions to be convenient to our lives.

We have a conversation with our friends from far away country by cell-phone, telephone, the Internet.

If we want to know latest news around the world, we can watch TV, mobile, and the Internet.

It's difficult to imagine that living the world without these communication inventions especially for the Internet.

Obeying the traffic laws

It is a responsibility for natives. However, we can see some people disobey the rules on TV.

It's frequently occurred by drunk-driving. For improving this type of accident loss, our government makes more serious penalty for it.

Only I can say, if you want to drink outside, remember reminding your wife to carry you back. Drunk-driving is a stupid behavior. 

Pessimist

I am a pessimist. I always have a shame for my surrounding that my family can't afford any what I can help in my career. Before I was very look forward to myself. Now I haven't much sufficient confidence as returning back home. Hahn... Human life is not simple to live. Think more about the job I want to.

Say what?

The second day, buddy. let me think. well, this afternoon I had a fried tempura supper. first of all, I went to the vendor I usually costume for my fried food order. I had accompanied with the girl, who is my new classmate in some classes. she had no idea for her dinner. After walking the food street a round, she decided to buy fried chicken slice to the same seller as i did. Sometimes we have a hesitating mind to make a decision. Although I had a little impatience for that event, I still keep my mind to search food along with her. Maybe next time the late one to decide what to eat is me.  

Use words in ABC!

For improving English, it's better to compose a article in ABC. So , I plan to do it today. May I can do it! Last class in this day I have two new classmates, one is a temporary girl with me, the another is a forty-six year old man. I have same self-situation with the girl, so that we got along with each other. The man said he wants to take Toeic examination as same as the girl does. Now he has two companies. Having no economic problem let him have time to prepare the doctor degree on his alumni university. After hearing about his experience, we had a sour mind. God! Hope I reach my destination in a hurry. what's my goal? To start with, learning English make me speaking and listening to foreigners fluently. Then doing the translating exercises makes me have this ability. Above all, keep me live in ABC world. Don't be fail to face ABC, even I feel drowned by reading all English paper. Just try to adopt it.

晚間二更

吼~~，搞了半天，原來是更改密碼的關係，害我以為是這幾天被我操到發熱的緣故，表弟天兵在密碼中加一幹，真是相當無言。好了今天依舊睡覺聽golden rule，把她聽熟，是有一小點進步啦，到後半段就挺吃力。so, keep on listening.上天保佑我的褲子可以在撐久一點，最近食慾好的結果就是大腿變粗，雖然我已經接受這個事實了。咳咳~~

聽後感

把golden rule當作睡覺音樂聽好像行不通，文上只說每個單字聽不全，就一直聽到明白為止。
我在想得把小文背起來才行的通，其實每個字音我都分的出來，就是一時意會不了這字的意思，加上斷斷續續的聽，沒啥效耶！另外，昨兒個又給自己定一個基功培訓20日計畫，拿GVO教材的改造20日套書一用，就是每天造他一課作，期許自己可以真的真的實踐。哈哈，兩天沒key，原本昨晚四點有打算，虧在家中網路不給力，手機只能用html寫~沒學過，so到現在，最快晚上見。

又變

我一直都有聽廣播做ABC互動，不過顯然這樣是不夠的。長達一年的時間與ABC培養的是泛聽，但這對我在聽他人講ABC時並沒什麼效果，得逼自己改成精聽，先從慢速短文開始。我為自己設定為其一個月的訓練：8─初級/8─中級/8─高級，依講速區分，回家練。我一直都是選對自己能先上手的做，畏懼更高的程度，沒信心毅力堅持下去，過程中遲疑自己此行之舉是否是對，這應該就是我的懵點吧，只有堅持我才能達成我想做的事。呵~~前途漫漫，明兒個開始聽後感。

抉擇

晚上google''如何翻譯''和''中英翻譯練習''，被我挖出許多東西來，知道對岸是如何培訓菁英中的菁英，還有以後會用上的「愛思英語學習網」，我真有心要做這行的話。想了很多，到底我人生的走向要如何。我想賭一把，反正我和BL是脫不了關係，十年的沉淪讓我離不開他，我原本只把他當作興趣消遣看看，不過現在身無絕技的我想嘗試把他加入我的事業裡。既然我會不由自主花時間看，何不將他換成另一種形式？未來的趨勢是國際化，身為腐女的一員應該嘗試把他展現人前，而不是畏畏縮縮的躲在小角落拿著手機獨自排遣，我們也可以很光明，這又是甚麼違法、作奸犯科的事情。前不久我大膽在課堂上發表我看BL文的興趣，引來驚異的眼光，其實當時的我也很委縮，不過我講出來了。事後也是很不安，不過我還是為自己開解自己的作為沒什麼不對。我打算未來有一天能將我喜歡看的小說翻成英文推廣國外，開間專屬BL的書店。現實上，我是個連英文基礎都沒打好、話也說不順的小鬼，加上目前沒有收入，讓我心慌慌。我是盤算著有個旅照做底，實踐出國見識的想法，也能有所收入。我不是很想從事與自己的想要的專業ABC不和的職業，事實上是我不想從事之前的體力活和新少的工作。其實領隊導遊的工作與我想走的方向也不是雷同，我只是想說有出國的機會和ABC專業。先讓自己基功打實，把地球村的教材熟悉了解一番，具備教師的能力，以多益檢定當跳板，用英文做思維表達說寫，讓自己生產話語文章。我認為自己是有必要去國外走一遭，習慣他們的文化、說話方式，當然首先我得先適應他們的網站，一大堆ABC看下來真的頭很痛。雖然我也想對社會盡點貢獻，前提得讓自己脫離米蟲生活，現在的自身狀況沒法讓我全心與家人互動，而且對花費非常排斥。我是想有一番大作為→無能、一籌莫展，且改善家中環境生活→無錢施展，心有餘而力不足。讓我想到舅舅說的話：認識自己。我一直很自卑，覺得自己很無能，實則是沒盡全力和持久。所以現在的挑戰：打基+ 聽說+多益，還有旅照ALL PASS。地球村靠你了！

On optimism and pessimism

The word is opposite of each other. As a Pieces girl, I wonder my star sign. My thoughts always have two contrary opinions conflicting. For example, I choose my specialty as my lifelong career. I select English language, but then I feel worried without learning well as my pro. I'm not confident. Usually I asked myself if my road is right. It's called pessimism in my situation. I hope I can improve my language as a profession within a short time. That seems to be more arrogant. Probably owning a lot of money could make me to be more confident and become an optimistic person. No wonder most people in this era are not happy. 

慌

剛查了有關到美國工作生活網頁，哇~現實真是有夠殘酷的。對身沒本事的我來說，真是極大的挑戰。還是先把英文學好再說。明兩可以睡到自然醒真好，打算將Brian給我的英文導覽瀏覽做整一番，加油。還有了解從事領隊和翻譯的工作要具備的技能和求職的方式，以及其他相關英文的工作，我問寫作老師他的GVO授課待遇，他都不講，倒是讓他把自己離婚一子獨身的狀況道出，真是令我覺得自己失言和驚訝，我想說他的狀況應該不會向我家父母的情況一樣說。咳~~人世無常。好了，該去做該做的事，今天的作業還沒做了！

破功

前天才下定決心的K字彙作業，昨天未出師就先死。點點...

發現這樣一個一個Key練耗時，就想改變一下方針，將Key改看，此外還要增加弱項補強─寫作/口說。
寫作成續：(句構+佳句揣摩)→200字/日→400字/日→600字/日，各階段一個月。
口說：口造十句/日

所以接下來我的每日生活是─
起床→GVO：上課、抄文、作業、版物筆記→家中：字彙KEY+寫作+口說→洗漱上床

後兩天是兒童清明，用線上上課體驗看看。

我的職業，還是先以旅遊為主，雖然想做翻譯，不過這級數目前是望即實遠，我還是先做好對這行業有一定了解再行動。在我心裡，持著不大的野心，現在的打算成就日後的造化，若我是領隊還是翻譯，就不會有什麼升晉，想爭大錢有一番事業，勢必得自掘一條路道。想說興趣與事業結合，打算開一家自我風格的BL租書店。不過一來資金的獲取、實質商店的著落、市場來源的管道等都是我得面對的問題，還是先有一筆錢在說吧！再來，期許自己對社會國家有所貢獻作為，我害羞內向，但我也不想就此埋沒成為無名小卒，雖然知道那不會是我所好，我也不想放棄。提一大堆，當下還是先把我的ABC顧好吧！

融入團體

一個問題：明知在這個集合區只是暫時，自身需要有一個適當的環境作修為，在與他人有短暫的互動，必要去招呼嗎？

其實是我庸人自擾吧嘞！想打招呼就去，手頭有活不便打擾就不要理，不就這麼簡單嗎！看來我在待人的應對還是沒改善，今天還對不關自身事大呼小叫，真的...我還是沒甚麼改進。天呀！處變不驚此種處事作為啥時才能保有呢？我真是太情緒化了說。

寫作老師爆出他有意退休，打算自開補習班養老，問我們的意見。彼此交流讓我受益良多，
他的傳奇讓我知道一些關於在補教界從師的大概，不過我沒問的很詳細，下回再跟他諮詢兼課量和薪資待遇，順便把他忘記帶走的雨傘還給他。畢竟我是打算靠英文吃飯的，多一條謀生管道不無好處。

至於那張卡，去捷運測試的結果依然不行用。失望之餘，還是默默地丟進垃圾桶。好在我的學卡沒有不見，結論就是：沒有損失。好了，等會噓噓後，每日記字任務開始。

A thankful experience myself

I had left may family to rely on myself for three years.

Now, I come back home to begin my second career. Due to my former monotonous work, I hope I can be  an outgoing tour leader.

From learning- English for a period of time, my family concern more for me. Although they don't support my choice of career, I am grateful for my family.